At the end of each year, many people start posting a summary of how their year went by and what their new year's resolution are on social media. I've seen so many this year, all talking about how they have had ups and downs, how they've grown and how they are ready for the next year. I think I used to be one of them. Feeling like nothing is going to knock me down, that the next year is a new year and I can be a new me. That all the pain and suffering has only made me stronger and I can definitely deal with life better.
This year, I didn't make that post, I didn't comment on how my year passed by. I felt more like an observer rather than a participant of the trend. Perhaps its because I don't know anymore. I no longer have the certainty I have in me nor the fire in me to fight that stubborn fight of standing tall and fighting against the odds or fdate (if you like) or being positive about it. I'm simply just here, floating along the sea of time, waiting to see what my next experience is, waiting to see what lies ahead.
I do, however, have a new year resolution for 2019. And that is to give to others what I wish others would give to me. Perhaps an listening ear, a open heart, love, kindness, friendship, faith... I'll constantly try to be as selfless as I can. 2019 will be my year of giving. And I hope this blog post will help me keep my resolution, even if nobody actually reads it.
